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beauty no. 2
I’ve decided to be pretty again. I’ve determined that my motive for ugliness was not, as I had been claiming, an alignment of values and actions, but an attempt to worsten one’s condition for the sake of more dramatic contrast in the comeback. I’m young. I’m lucky. I sell out so easy. maybe its not…
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on photography
I’m not a photographer but I think I’d like to be. I always have plans to start doing interesting things and posting the photos on instagram but I can’t stand taking pictures of doing interesting thing to post on instagram, it sucks the air out of it for me. I think that there is a…
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how to be gorgeous
I’m doing it again. I love to write up pretty instructions. it’s so satisfying watching potential take shape in your mind and become graspable through action. it’s even more satisfying to follow such instructions and watch it actualize itself in flesh and perception/exchange. to grasp… I understand it’s a childish modality, I do. to view…
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ugly summer
it is hot and it is beautiful. I’ve been living at my parents house for a month and a half. my room is the attic now and it is bright and wide and lofty. the floor is made of soft sunfaded cork, perfect for lying on. I had posters up for the first month but…
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movies pt. 2
I’m waiting for you to invite me over and greet me at the door with vermouth mixed with water wondering what exactly i was that wasn’t worth coming back for, how desperately i wanted billy to pull the trigger proving layla had been no better than i understanding i had loved you enough to have…
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on a few movies
I have a really long list of movies to watch and I often have thoughts on them so if I’m already talking to the void I might as well publish them here too. this weekend I watched like five things paris, texas (1984), dir. Wim Wenders trouble every day (2001), dir. Claire Denis the brown…
